call me crazy...

but i am going crazy.
i never thought Jen would be sick when i needed her most. Tomorrow is my first dance show and i was really hoping she'd be there for me before! I mean, i understand she doesn't feel good. But why did the man upstairs bring me down like this!!
she was there for me when my friends went crazy on me (not really crazy....) but this is so important to me. I dont even know if i can do this without her. I'm suddenly self conscious and worried about performing! I don't know what to do. I'm so dumb for crying over something like this.
I'm way more sensitive than i remember.